you know what's discouraging...
it's knowing that at the end of the day, i realize i have no one. my life is as boring as a shrub. no one seems to care. the guys i thought i loved left me-- Dustin, Antoine, even Billy.
i should have given Bob the chance right before all these rejections had happened. He was the only guy who took me seriously (aside from Brit who doesn't have a serious life). The rest of them either consider me as a past time or someone to bang with.
i'm seriously trying to consider a total life renovation but i don't know where to start.
i just wanna have a nice gorgeous guy to be seriously inlove with and some true friends who could equalize the non-intensity of my life with some fun