Miraculously, we were able to hit a positive net income for the Year-to-Date June 2007. May is all smiles as if she was vitally part of that success! But you know, what I'm worried about-- I think it will be a financial loss for the next month. The dirty, old man Mr. Rodolfo which happens to be one of our top client hasn't made request for reposition through our company. Maybe because of price issues.

May kept on insisting that I invite this man for dinner for client-representation purposes. As much as I would want to, I just couldn't bear the thought of his hairy arm on my face as he tries to fondle me. This guy even attempted to seduce me in his private room. I couldn't slap him because the company might blame me for losing such a client. I couldn't even give in to his desires--- God have mercy on my soul if I would!!!!!!

Brit has been nice to me eversince. I don't see why i can't give in. It's hard for me to fall inlove anymore... why?

Goodnight everyone...
tomorrow's another day. i'll be seeing my idiotic boss again in the office,we'll be exchanging rumors again and pretend that i like it. She'll be talking shit again about the nitty-gritty aspects of my job. and i'm gonna listen like she's my mom.
And i'm gonna go later to the rest room and scream inwardly pretending like i was screaming at her.
So help me God.

i'm undergoing serious credit card problems. it seems that bills is always sent to me faster than my paycheck is.
can anyone help me on this?! i'm still 25 and i'm buried in debt!!! damn it.

WHAT THE HELL WAS I THINKING!!!
I couldn't believe i posted his damn photo?! What if he'd knew.....

If he knew, then he knew.. *sigh*

You guys are absolutely right.
Maybe it's about time to seriously consider that things aren't really going my way. YEap, he won for now... He fucking won!! That damn bastard.

I could even hear what he's trying to tell me:
"Gorgeous (yeah, that's what he calls me. That lying son of a bitch!), i just wanna bang you. Clear my head.. Get in, get off, (wait for a 2-month grace period), then get out.. of your life.. for good!!!"

Don't worry guys, i'm fine. see, i'm darn happy.i've persevered enough.. i'll let go. and perhaps stick to my guns and just be with this guy i've been with for 6 years (i'm practically bored with him really).. An perhaps i'm just too ordinary and sexually mediocred to have someone like this:

I don't know to you but he is so darn good looking and strikingly charming to me!!! Uh-oh, here i am again..

Shit, i need to be Billy-sober by now.. Can anyone help me???!! Please? I need serious help..

i can't fucking sleep!!! how can i ever sleep in the first place when there are evil voices in my head telling me to make a fucking great fool of myself by showing this guy that i "love" him.. *screams to death*

i just did thought. i opened my email account and to my non-surprise. He didn't show up in my inbox. I don't know what had happened to him. Did he die in the war or something, or did he just let me figure that he was just making it as an excuse that he's not interested in me anymore just because i refused to make another nude video of myself and send it to him as if i don't know that he showed those to his fellow soldiers coz they've been celibate for like eons and their penises need some hole to feel the emptiness inside.

yah. i already figured. he got tired of me. shit. after all those sweet nothings!!! i can't believe i fell for that. he told me i'm a fucking wonderful person. yeah! wonderful my ass!!! i was right all along. i shouldn't have believed that there's something magical between the two of us. it was just sex all along.. no more, no less.

GOD HOW DID I BECOME TO GET SO FUCKING STUPID!!!!!!!!!!!

you know what's discouraging...
it's knowing that at the end of the day, i realize i have no one. my life is as boring as a shrub. no one seems to care. the guys i thought i loved left me-- Dustin, Antoine, even Billy.
i should have given Bob the chance right before all these rejections had happened. He was the only guy who took me seriously (aside from Brit who doesn't have a serious life). The rest of them either consider me as a past time or someone to bang with.
i'm seriously trying to consider a total life renovation but i don't know where to start.
i just wanna have a nice gorgeous guy to be seriously inlove with and some true friends who could equalize the non-intensity of my life with some fun

what's up with all these yahoo chatters showing off their disgusting and gooey 3-5 inches packages over the net?! it's not even sexually stimulating..

pls. cut the crap before your webcam's gonna burn from pure and utter disgust.

"Love is the only rational act."

Said Levine..

Bullshit..